R.I.P. Thomas

August 4th

3 p.m.

Death from Car Accident....Thomas Wartz....one of my friends.

Thomas was a friend to everyone he always would make you laugh or smile....and he made up the stupidest stuff it always made you smile ....i hope every one will miss him that new him he always brightened up a room expcially during girls basketball game and the girls games were so boring He saved anothers life for his owns....he had no reason to die...he was only 17 and many of his friends and family wonder why it had to be him! It's Hard realizing someone like Thomas just gone like that someone who would talk to you and sit by you during sport games....I know i will miss him....and i hope the Lord is laughing with him right now...getting to know the great guy Thomas was!

~We will all miss you Thomas nothing will be the same without you!~

4th of July was amazing....

hope everyone else enjoyed it as much as i did

WoW fireworks are really fun when your with Eddie Cody and Joey..haha)

great time on a Wed. Nite!

Reo...I Fucking Love you Kid!!!

Now i miss you.....

nice asss..haha

Im having a great time in South Dakota!

Well havent been on here sense like Tuesday..well lets see Friday through today was LandC Days...well yea it was awesome...Friday went to Kelcies and brought my horse Leo gay horse but yea Kelcie and me Took Michael Sheldon and Chuck riding yea that was a blast for someone who has never really rode a horse Michael was running the whole time it was probably one of the best horse back rides ive ever been on then after we went to Pyers aka Adams...well like everyone was there...some were drinking or already Drunk ( Lefty) Blake and me danced with the disco lighty thing hes a good dancer love that song Blake haha!!!

Well then Kelcie and I went to go pick up Miss Walter and Walked around all town with Adam it was alot of funn....and i love swings!!!! Then Saturday morning well got up at 730 and then went to paint Stich and get the rest of the horses ready and then we rode in the Parade With Katie Anne!!! Then we all just drove around all day until the like 8pm then Koda Lizza and Me went to Beutlers and hung out with everyone again....then went to the street dance and that was lots of funn..even though everyone was drunk and it was soo wierd cuz im not really a drinker...or big on it or anything...then i hung out with Fiedler most of the nite which was lots fun we went to See Kelcie at the church and we hung out for like an hour...and then me and Him drove around for like another hour...and just talked...then went back to the dance and went home..and now im here writing to you people...

-me-

Ya well i said earlier i took this person riding well we didnt go riding we just went swimming in the hot tub great fun i loved it!!! thats my 2nd blog for the day i usually dont come on here all the time anymore...but it was fun....

Well Tuesday was great fun got up at like 530 to say goodbye to my lovely sister before she went to Maryland shes there now poopy loser....haha well at like 830 Kelcie came over and we hung out went riding horse which was lots of fun and i got on my Yearlings back it was soo fun!  Then came to town and hung out with Derek Fiedler for a bit at the hospital cuz we havent seen him all summer so yea...then went to Kelcies and she had to work at 4 to like 9 which sucked but then Kayla Kadie and Jason came over and i went riding with them and i was the first person to ride Stich Bareback galloping it was soo fun i love that horse then we came home and i went to the pool to visit Kyla i love that girl but then we went driving around and we went to Kevins and hung out with him and Britt it was fun me and Kelcie love you soo much Kevin (Barbie Ken) and then we went to Beckers and Watch like an hour of a movie then left and i stole Walter for the nite from Adam and shes so awesome my favorite puppy ever and then got up and then came home welll went the farm so Kadie And Koda could see my horses and my house and now im here and taking someone riding..this is ganna be interesting.....

Soo...my weekend was pretty interesting...i went to Falkirks dance and Picnic or whatever..and it was raining and cold until later on that nite..well we hung out at Heftas...with Jess Rew Fox and Andrew....and i got a ride on a 4 wheeler after like 7 years...yea..it was awesome i got scaried in some places...then when Katie and me Thought we had to leave i went and said goodbye to someone wow not telling anything but that was soo much fun...and then i guess we got to stay another hour so we just went back to Heftas and hung out around the house talking bout all the sluts in Underwood...hmmmm...yea...wel then today went riding in the rain and that was fun for 4 hours..and then got home then went back riding and Remy and he reared up on her and yea he fell ontop of her..i was so scared but she was fine thankfully!!!!~ but that was my wonderful weekend.....My sister leave in 1 more day....im ganna miss her i have to be stuck in stupid ND but ill be fine i promise i got my buddys and someone special now!!!

Only 2 Pictures I took at the Cancer Walk of 2006!

Kyla and Me

Kevin and Me

Well Friday..came and gone...but boyo was it a great time...lets see i went to the Sandbars for the first time ever with Kyla and some other people or lots of people to be exact....then after the sandbars we all went to the pool which by the way i got paint all over my knees cuz the paint was coming off! then the cancer walk it was awesome when we got there it took us forever to put the tent up cuz Kevin was being an idiot. well we walked some...Koda and I stole Miss Walter for then nite i had her until like 1 in the morning i love that puppy...shes the only thing that loves me well then after that me and Kevin went walking and then Kyle came to the thing and then Adam and I walked and looked at the stars for like an hour and then i went to the big group and layed between Kelcie and Kevin cuz there was no room so i stole half of Kevs blanket and he moves to much and i had Boo Jordans puppy in between us so i couldnt get any sleep which kinda sucked..then they handed out the Dounuts at like 4 in the morning crazy people haha then we picked up the sandbags ( Danny,Kevin,Natalie, and me) it was lots of fun ( Sand is soo much fun when your with your friends) Than i helped Kevin and his mom take there stuff to their house cuz i was going to Beckmans....then i left like 10 minutes later cuz Adam was taking me home haha wow that kid is funny looking in the morning expecially when you go to bed at 3 in the morning and then get up at 6:30 haha well that was a nice ride home lots of convertation! well that was my Cancer Walk for 2006

-me-

Well everyone told you, i had a trail ride on Monday well it was pretty awesome my gorgeous girl Kelcie came it made me soo happy and i got to see my adorable Jon i missed that kid so much and then Nicole came to and we all rode together it was sooo much fun fun!!!! then i stayed the nite @ Katie Anne's house which was awesome we got home pretty late so we didnt do much though...watch the movie Elektra it was really good actaully i liked it anyways and then we went on a motorcycle ride it was fun and long we seen Samuel Hultberg which was fun cuz we talked a bit then we left agian..and then today worked at the house @ Katies until my dad came then hung out @ home a bit..then all of a sudden Kaylee my girl called and was like you wanna go riding so i was like sure so we took the horses for a little ride so thats my plan for the 2 good days of the week now i have to move cattle tomorrow....fun stuff then Thursday hopefully go riding with Kelcie Dawn and then go to her house until after the Cancer walk cant wait post more later love ya guys....

-me-

Lets see...such a busy weekend....Thursday brought my idol Teona riding shes sooo awesome i love the girl...well Popeye was being a butt on her and shes the only one thats ever stayed on him while he bucked besides me!!! {im so proud of her shes amazing!!!haha} well then on Friday had to work with the ugly horses again it was alright..im using a hackamore on Poppie now so hes alot better....and Saturday got a day off to sleep all day...haha but we had to get up at 6:30 for the horse sale so we got to Jaimies and hes sleeping still and he takes forover people if you think your bf or gf take forever Jaimie takes like 2 hours to even get out of bed when then again we hit the road got to the horse sale...same ol same ol, and JJ met Sarah what a reck haha hes soo funny around girls..well we bought 9 goat babys their so adorable well then when we got home we fed the babys and hung out for a bit....Sunday...umm got up at like noon haha then went out to Jaimies again and got the horses hooves trimmed and then moved Cattle great fun just one semi though still have another one coming on Wed! Then the wonderful today....well im going on a trail ride(first of the season) yippy cant wait!!!!! well im leaving here at 10:30 or soo to go to Katie Anne's to get Sassy and the other pony Destiny well then im going to see Jon and Kelcie is coming on the ride i love my beckster....well more later pips.....love ya all!

-me-

Ive lost my passion to write anything anymore...ive lost you and him and her....ive just lost everything starting out new...maybe one day ill pick up a pencil and grab my old book and write something inspiring or loveing down but the thing is the more you write down the more the memories go to the letters and words were they stay trapped forever.....im sick of waiting for someone to push me away or put me together....i wanna be happy free....there are still ppl going to Iraq why cuz they dont want us over there....so why are we over there...to help them with a better Goverment i have a dear friend that is goin there this summer...what to help our country and theirs....and maybe end up gettting shot or killed by another who doesnt want him over there!!

and then again there are these ppl in these small communtys that care more then care....and some of them are so obsessed with themselves and try to get attention and maybe cut themselve or hurt others....whats the point just to make your country or yourselve feel better...well BULLSHIT.....you guys are so obbessed with yourselves and ur power you dont really see whats out there...people dieing everyday cuz they dont have a home or food in there bellys...people who have diseases...so get over yourselves already...cuz its pathetic....that there is my good bye to writing anything for awhile...so long....love.....

I loved him dear.....then i lost him..this is how i once wrote wrote about how i loved or hated this or that, him or her...but they were all my feelings the things i miss dear are locked away in those letters and words, things that happened years or months ago....that i thought i would care about to this day, well they are only smeared images i can hardly remember...So many people out there that dwell on the past, future, or everyday well i cant complain i am one of them....so are you no one can say they are perfect cuz there is no such thing as perfect if there was i dont think i would wish to live there they say that our Lord is perfect....wake-up, he mad mistakes to everyone does! The Lord says come out of the dark and enter the light, come to life wake up to Reality...Reality sucks but every test you go through is training for a better tomorrow so like me stop writing about I loved him dear........then i lost him......

-Me-

I remember the minutes
before her death,
when she asked me to
turn on the bedside
box fan.

I remember how
it spun clockwise
clicked,
back spun
then clockwise again
like time caught and
dragged backwards.
And while time was
stagnant she taught me
what it is like to die.

-Erin'a Nicole-

Awww..... what a great boring day...the only good thing is....is i gatta see Adam at U-Mary only fun i had all day but all the guys and gurls in my class were saying stupid things after he left the cafeteria than we went to the field hall and i seen him and talked to him more....about just stupid random things!haha But my day was better maybe cuz i wasnt in school and seen someone that makes my day a whole lot better these days!~and Im so sick of school i have like no reason to go anymore!~ But i guess ill post something later!

-Me-

Fucked Up on you...Cutting down to the bone

Fucking pissed you left...Holding that bloody Blade in My hand

Cant taking it....Slice through again...Watching the blood come up to the surface...

The pain inside my head...bang...fuck..no..it wont stop...its eatting my mind away.

Fuck this...sick of the pain sick of the fucking blade...Attempt again...bring it closer...

tearing through the flesh...making it bigger...cutting...bleeding...Fuck its all over the floor...

Fuck Im out...cant take this fucking banging, pain...Memories of you...Fuck you did this

cant you see that...you fucking brought me here...as...i lye here on the floor...as the blood flows out

becoming weaker....cant stand...cant think....as i lye here...your with her...

                                                                     -Me-

Hey Homies,

       Well lets see this weekend was the best of my life!!~Well yesterday I got up at 6 in the morning went to the horse sale and almost bought a horse...but didnt! But than went to a fleemarket which was fun than ate at Burger King!~yummy in my tummy! Umm than went to Washburn and went to go see Kayla do her finals for speech which was great great fun!!~Hung out with Devon and Ashley and some other ppl for a bit it was fun...Devon I love the pink Skirt!~ Than went over to Lexi's and met Kari shes very gorgeous and hung out with Mr.Kevin hes a sexy man!Than went to the Fire...for a little bit kept on missing Kelcie hahaWow does Bob Upgren now how to draww...hes amazing and so is Darricks band!~And after that went to Paul Swanson's Garage...seen lots of ppl! Jordan B is great at basketball! WOW!~ haha Umm Paul and Sailor built a halvepipe and last nite Blake tryed going down it like five times and landed on his ass everytime...Micheal is a big loser!~Than Kuch, Kelcie and me took Blakes car and put tampons,pads,a thong and a banana and something else in his car it was soo funny! Than Kelcie and I left and went to someones house great fun uh Kelcie!~ Than went to Mr. Carrys haha that was fun got to see Kelcies horses!~ Than we watched a movie...and laughed at Carry and many things! Than Morning came...got up and went to church...I love that Church....Than Carry took us out to eat....That was yummy!!! Than we went to Adam Thomas' House that was funny...He'll just be on the interent right Kelcie! Well we talked got to see wilburt what a sexy doggy! and I named Adams cat {Kelcie} haha And than i got the 3 best cds from him and he was still wearing his pjs haha that was the funny part and i through Kelcies License out of the car and she ran over Adams feet!~Well after that went back to Carrys and then got ready and Kelcie took me home and we ran out to see my horses...and my puppy than my beautiful Lover left me!~hahaand now ive been watching the superbowl and Steelers are winning!!~ Well thats how my weekend was...hope you loved it!~

-Me-